Thursday, February 4, 2010

God Is Faithful

God has been up to some crazy stuff in my life lately.

During a short trip to Arizona, I felt like something adventurous was about to happen or like something was about to change. After returning from that trip on a Tuesday, I found out that Friday that I would be losing my part-time job because there wasn't enough work to be able to keep me.

So, I had two weeks left there, and I am now officially unemployed (my last day of work was yesterday). Yet I am strangely filled with the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding. God has been so present in my life lately. I have no idea what is next. My only hope is in God, the One who loves me and is faithful. I rest in Him. I know He will provide and I eagerly await the next great adventure of whatever He calls me to. ("Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is faithful." Hebrews 10:23)

It'
s weird to wake up in the morning today and have nothing ahead of me - no idea what the future will hold yet to be filled with peace from God and looking forward to spending time with Him and to seeing what He brings into my life next and how He provides.

It's crazy how things turn out. As you know, I have been looking for a full-time job ever since graduating last May, and it feels like it has been a long time in coming. I've exhausted all my own resources and know that without God's provision I am toast, which is actually a really good place to be and where I should have started from. So much good has happened in that time with volunteering and Bible studies that I never would have expected. God really used a period of seeming "stuckness" to use me for good and to shape me and my character and my trust in Him. It has been an interesting process. I am now completely open to whatever adventure God has next for me. I feel like God prepared me for suddenly losing my job and is up to something good but I don't know what yet :)

And you know, I have been strangely more alive and filled with joy these past two weeks since finding out I would be losing my job - because I have been even more focused on God, more aware of just how desperately I need Him, have spent more time delighting in His presence, have received help from Him in overcoming fear, and have been encouraged in so many ways that He is good and faithful.

So, we'll see what's next. lol. I have no clue. Prayers appreciated :)

Some other cool stuff God has been speaking to me lately:

"Keep your mind on the present journey, enjoying My Presence. Walk by faith, not by sight, trusting Me to open up the way before you." -from Jesus Calling by Sarah Young

"Perfect love casts out fear." -from 1 John 4:18